Re: Get Connected TODAY with My Manilow Network!

> Anywho.... this web developer also has earned the right to be an IT
> Manager (3 years this Dec) and it has been a very hard road to learn
> what I knew then and what I know now.
>
> deb.

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Its been... well a rough few weeks..

I came back here, read a few posts and wondered.... whose that
conceited as*... well.. it was me.

And after reading more .. I have to notice, I am trying to convince
you, that I know something... and that maybe I am doing this 'here'
because for some reason, I feel utterly powerless to do it.. where it
counts.. and that is where I work.

Sometimes you just feel that no matter how many hours, no matter how
many times you pull others out of the fire going out of your way, and
no matter how much you learn and know and .... well etc...

It just seems like .. sometimes its all for naught.  Your spinning
your wheels.

So here I am, apologizing for bringing this to you peps... its a
struggle I need to handle on my own and I'm letting it pour over into
here.

I mean who am I trying to convince?  You?  Me?  ... Maybe I just get
tired of standing right there - but always being looked past.

Odd but at work at home..its never about me.... so I have to wonder -
what is missing in my life - that when I come here.. its all about
me.  Probably low self-esteem. or maybe other people in my life just
need to see what a great person I am... or I need to find other people
in my life that can see it.. huh?

Anywho peace out.. I'll delete my babble and rants as I can.

Its just frustrating..you know.

Peace out and you can slap me in the head a few times to knock some
sense into me.

Its not that I think I am all that... I think its more that I feel as
if I am... 'nothing'.

deb :)